[well. it's all out in the open now, which is. . . a relief, in a way. but the fights that ensued afterwards-- while expected-- were not a relief at all]
[and when everything calms down, Akira goes on a Chuuya hunt. where are you Chuuya!!]
[Somehow just seeing Akira like that, it makes all of his anger and resentment over everything stab at his gut in a million ways that he couldn't even hope to describe.
Chuuya has never cried, not even once, across both games. Not when Dazai died, not when Reito died, not even during the memory share week where he got hit hard by all of his past. But at this moment, he's as close as he's ever come to it.]
It's- it's not fucking fair. They twisted the story around so that if anyone feels even a little bit angry at them, somehow that angry person will be wrong. They propped themselves up like some goddamn heroes, champions of all that is good, when they're not. They're just as fucking selfish and cowardly as the rest of us. And it's not fucking fair of them to act like they're anything but.
[there's. . . a lot of ways Akira could respond to that. a lot he disagrees with, and a lot of things he wants to say in their defense. they didn't ask for this any more than we did or this was their way of mitigating the damage or none of them said it's wrong or unfair for people to be angry at them. but he promised he'd listen. . . and quite frankly?]
[this is frustration and resentment that Chuuya is entitled to. that they're all entitled to. trying to mitigate it would be unfair, and so. . . he won't]
Mmm.
[he lowers his hands and takes a step closer to his friend, fingers twitching as he seeks out Chuuya's with his own]
. . . you think we're all selfish and cowardly, then?
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shortforever) wrote2020-06-06 12:09 pm
week six, monday
[and when everything calms down, Akira goes on a Chuuya hunt. where are you Chuuya!!]
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When he sees Akira though, he actually looks...angry?]
Don't say a fucking thing.
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Whaaaaat are you expecting me to say?
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[okay]
[he just. . . holds up both of his hands, palms facing forward, and doesn't say anything]
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Chuuya has never cried, not even once, across both games. Not when Dazai died, not when Reito died, not even during the memory share week where he got hit hard by all of his past. But at this moment, he's as close as he's ever come to it.]
It's- it's not fucking fair. They twisted the story around so that if anyone feels even a little bit angry at them, somehow that angry person will be wrong. They propped themselves up like some goddamn heroes, champions of all that is good, when they're not. They're just as fucking selfish and cowardly as the rest of us. And it's not fucking fair of them to act like they're anything but.
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[there's. . . a lot of ways Akira could respond to that. a lot he disagrees with, and a lot of things he wants to say in their defense. they didn't ask for this any more than we did or this was their way of mitigating the damage or none of them said it's wrong or unfair for people to be angry at them. but he promised he'd listen. . . and quite frankly?]
[this is frustration and resentment that Chuuya is entitled to. that they're all entitled to. trying to mitigate it would be unfair, and so. . . he won't]
Mmm.
[he lowers his hands and takes a step closer to his friend, fingers twitching as he seeks out Chuuya's with his own]
. . . you think we're all selfish and cowardly, then?
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[His words are firm as he says that. He's really upset right now, but not at Akira.
...MOSTLY not at Akira.]
There's a goddamn difference between what you said and what they said, don't act like there isn't!