[ Looking at the flowers instead of looking directly at him.
He didn't feel anything about failing those other people... well not until it came down to two in particular. He did care about losing certain moments, even if he does wish he never came to certain realizations from time to time. The body pile at the end and failing to escape the house also weren't good.
Chuuya then brings up Mori. That gets a little change of expression, making it clear he's also thinking about it. ]
It was obviously a fake one... he slashed at me without even trying to make it look like something I would have done.
[ He's actually thought in great length how Mori would kill him or have him killed. Make it look like a suicide or help guide him to the most effortless way to go. ]
I would be lying though if I said the experience didn't do something to me.
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Date: 2020-06-29 01:58 am (UTC)He didn't feel anything about failing those other people... well not until it came down to two in particular. He did care about losing certain moments, even if he does wish he never came to certain realizations from time to time. The body pile at the end and failing to escape the house also weren't good.
Chuuya then brings up Mori. That gets a little change of expression, making it clear he's also thinking about it. ]
It was obviously a fake one... he slashed at me without even trying to make it look like something I would have done.
[ He's actually thought in great length how Mori would kill him or have him killed. Make it look like a suicide or help guide him to the most effortless way to go. ]
I would be lying though if I said the experience didn't do something to me.