Chuuya freezes in place as he absorbs that memory, his heart tightening up as he watches and feels everything Dazai experienced. How horrible. And Dazai kept this to himself, never telling him about it?
By the end of it, Chuuya has pulled Dazai against him, wrapping him up in a firm hug.]
It's all done with, you don't have to go back to that. This is your place now.
[Not 'here' as in 'in the cabin', but 'here' as in 'with me'. Dazai doesn't have to be lonely anymore.]
[ This week was rude. He starts to open his mouth in an attempt to downplay what Chuuya just saw, but he's being pulled against him.
Ah.
He has no words at the moment. Just this overwhelming feeling that's threatening to take over. It's new, surprising, and very warm...
He thinks about how Chuuya and Reito came to mind when the golden droid was talking about the definition of home. Drawing in a slow breath before he just presses a kiss against Chuuya's mouth.
It's still hard to raise his hopes up after they have been hammered back so many times before but maybe... he can let a tiny seed of it actually grow? ]
[That's the same 'maybe' Chuuya is thinking right now too. Time and time again, he's been shut down and thrown out from anything good that has ever happened to him. And while being with Dazai isn't really the picture of a healthy relationship, he still feels like it's something worth holding onto. And maybe, just maybe, neither of them will die this time.
Is it safe to hope like that? Probably not. But as Chuuya accepts that kiss and presses his lips back against Dazai's in return, he decides to throw caution to the wind.
[ It might not be healthy, but healthy wouldn't work for him.
Sliding his hand up Chuuya's back to the back of his neck to lightly dig into his hair. Ending the kiss shortly after. As much as he wouldn't mind a make out session, it is late and Chuuya is bound to remember they aren't alone. ]
[Chuuya will blame Dazai for it in turn. Too tsundere to admit to feelings.]
As if you could get rid of me anyway.
[The hair-touching does make him sleepy though, and he finds himself settling in and getting comfortable in the bed. Sleeping comes easier, even in cramped spaces like this, ever since he started sharing the space with someone else. It was true even in the house: just having Akira nearby made sleep easier.
It's something to ponder on later. For now, he's definitely falling back asleep.]
[ Unfortunately because it's heavy topics, his own brain doesn't shut down. If anything, it tries to pinpoint when did he become important to Chuuya at the House or how did it even end up like this.
He'll tuck his face against Chuuya's shoulder. Once his partner is out, he'll focus on hearing him breathing, while feeling the way his chest moved. Eventually he manages to fall back asleep. ]
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Date: 2020-06-30 08:34 pm (UTC)Chuuya freezes in place as he absorbs that memory, his heart tightening up as he watches and feels everything Dazai experienced. How horrible. And Dazai kept this to himself, never telling him about it?
By the end of it, Chuuya has pulled Dazai against him, wrapping him up in a firm hug.]
It's all done with, you don't have to go back to that. This is your place now.
[Not 'here' as in 'in the cabin', but 'here' as in 'with me'. Dazai doesn't have to be lonely anymore.]
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Date: 2020-06-30 08:56 pm (UTC)Ah.
He has no words at the moment. Just this overwhelming feeling that's threatening to take over. It's new, surprising, and very warm...
He thinks about how Chuuya and Reito came to mind when the golden droid was talking about the definition of home. Drawing in a slow breath before he just presses a kiss against Chuuya's mouth.
It's still hard to raise his hopes up after they have been hammered back so many times before but maybe... he can let a tiny seed of it actually grow?
]
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Date: 2020-06-30 11:38 pm (UTC)Is it safe to hope like that? Probably not. But as Chuuya accepts that kiss and presses his lips back against Dazai's in return, he decides to throw caution to the wind.
This is fine. They'll be alright.]
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Date: 2020-07-01 12:13 am (UTC)Sliding his hand up Chuuya's back to the back of his neck to lightly dig into his hair. Ending the kiss shortly after. As much as he wouldn't mind a make out session, it is late and Chuuya is bound to remember they aren't alone. ]
What if I want to sleep like this instead?
[ Maybe they can get back to sap in a moment. ]
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Date: 2020-07-01 12:57 am (UTC)Tonight it's fine. And let's sleep in tomorrow too.
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Date: 2020-07-01 01:34 am (UTC)For now, he's going to keep playing with Chuuya's hair to help the other get sleepy. ]
You know, even if we decide to stop this between us, I still plan on keeping Chuuya around.
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Date: 2020-07-01 04:43 am (UTC)As if you could get rid of me anyway.
[The hair-touching does make him sleepy though, and he finds himself settling in and getting comfortable in the bed. Sleeping comes easier, even in cramped spaces like this, ever since he started sharing the space with someone else. It was true even in the house: just having Akira nearby made sleep easier.
It's something to ponder on later. For now, he's definitely falling back asleep.]
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Date: 2020-07-01 02:59 pm (UTC)He'll tuck his face against Chuuya's shoulder. Once his partner is out, he'll focus on hearing him breathing, while feeling the way his chest moved. Eventually he manages to fall back asleep. ]