[Ah, right. The whole monsters and murders things. That certainly makes it harder to even think about feelings and the like.]
You're probably right. There's other stuff we gotta do first.
...but you know, there's a lot of stuff I've never done before. And ever since Dazai died, I've been thinking 'what if I never get that chance'? So I guess that's why it's been on my mind.
I mean, look at me: I've killed a man but I've never even kissed anyone before. That's backwards, isn't it?
[It makes him feel inadequate, like he's messed up along the way and he's an inferior person for it. Which is very hard for him to even hint at, Akira's just made a good impression on him and makes it easier to open up.]
[Akira's brow furrows, because that name is familiar. it's a piece of his soul, tucked away in the back of his brain, ready to be called forth to fight for him if he ever needed it]
My Persona is a piece of my. A portion of my soul. It takes the form of different mythological, historical and literary figures. I can summon it to fight for me in the Metaverse when I need to.
[his hand falls to his lap]
The way you put it made it sound like Arahabaki was your Persona.
You know, I can't even say 'yes' or 'no' to that because I legit don't even know what we are. I just know that I'm connected to Arahabaki somehow. If I really focus I can hear h him sometimes, but it's better if I don't do that.
[Is Arahabaki a piece of his soul, or is he a piece of Arahabaki's? Who knows. Chuuya certainly doesn't.]
So I guess you can't summon a Persona here to bust us out, huh?
[Akira surely doesn't, either. . . and it's kind of weird for Chuuya to talk about Arahabaki as a separate being when Akira himself is used to Arahabaki just being a part of him]
I can't.
[he responds with a huffed laugh]
Things would be way easier if I could. Kind of like they would be if you had your gravity powers.
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Date: 2020-03-19 06:26 pm (UTC)Well, there's this one ghost--
[IS HE BEING SERIOUS??? IT'S HARD TO TELL???]
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Date: 2020-03-19 06:29 pm (UTC)Don't be stupid.
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Date: 2020-03-19 06:31 pm (UTC). . . more seriously: no, I don't think so.
[though. . . he does pause a bit as he gives that response, expression thoughtful, a hum buzzing on his lips]
There are some people here who have become very important to me. You're one of those people. But--
[. . .]
[well. . . is now the time to really think about what could be?]
Mmm. . . but I don't know. I don't think I should be focusing on those sorts of relationships right now.
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Date: 2020-03-19 06:39 pm (UTC)You're probably right. There's other stuff we gotta do first.
...but you know, there's a lot of stuff I've never done before. And ever since Dazai died, I've been thinking 'what if I never get that chance'? So I guess that's why it's been on my mind.
I mean, look at me: I've killed a man but I've never even kissed anyone before. That's backwards, isn't it?
[It makes him feel inadequate, like he's messed up along the way and he's an inferior person for it. Which is very hard for him to even hint at, Akira's just made a good impression on him and makes it easier to open up.]
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Date: 2020-03-19 06:56 pm (UTC)[Akira opens his mouth, ready to agree with Chuuya's supposition that he should just. . . go for it, instead of holding himself back, but then--]
[then Chuuya says the second part, and he frowns!!!]
I wouldn't say it's backwards. Your life has just been a lot different from, say, mine.
Kissing can be pretty special, if you kiss the right person. But it's not some milestone you should use to compare yourself to someone else.
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:13 pm (UTC)[The point being that Chuuya is different and he doesn't always like being different. Chuuya makes a noise and rubs at his face.]
Arahabaki would complicate things anyway, so this is probably all pointless.
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:15 pm (UTC)[Akira's brow furrows, because that name is familiar. it's a piece of his soul, tucked away in the back of his brain, ready to be called forth to fight for him if he ever needed it]
. . . Arahabaki?
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:20 pm (UTC)...right, you didn't see any of those memories, huh?
[WELL. Akira has proven to be trustworthy, so.
Chuuya points to his chest.]
He's in here. He's a part of me. He's where my gravity powers come from, actually.
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:25 pm (UTC)[closes it again]
Like a Persona?
[because that explanation sure does sound like the one he'd give if he were talking about his Personas!!]
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:31 pm (UTC)[Because he sure as hell hasn't heard that word before.]
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:37 pm (UTC)Not like a Persona, then. . .
[Akira lifts a hand places it over his heart]
My Persona is a piece of my. A portion of my soul. It takes the form of different mythological, historical and literary figures. I can summon it to fight for me in the Metaverse when I need to.
[his hand falls to his lap]
The way you put it made it sound like Arahabaki was your Persona.
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Date: 2020-03-19 07:45 pm (UTC)[Is Arahabaki a piece of his soul, or is he a piece of Arahabaki's? Who knows. Chuuya certainly doesn't.]
So I guess you can't summon a Persona here to bust us out, huh?
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Date: 2020-03-20 06:29 pm (UTC)I can't.
[he responds with a huffed laugh]
Things would be way easier if I could. Kind of like they would be if you had your gravity powers.
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Date: 2020-03-21 02:10 am (UTC)Like I said at the meeting, maybe we should try to find a way to get our powers back. We might be able to stop everything that way.
[And he misses having his gravity-powers :( ]
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:05 am (UTC)[he trails off there, because as far as he knows, they haven't been successful]
I don't really know if they can, but at least they're willing to try. Right?
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:18 am (UTC)[As much as he would like to be the first to get his powers back, he can at least recognize that someone else's powers would be more useful.]
I guess we'll have to wait a week and see what they come up with.
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Date: 2020-03-24 12:42 am (UTC)[nodnods!! though with the ouija board always available, Isaac might not necessarily need the powers he had back home]
I don't know if waiting a week is any different than having waited four and a half already, but. . .
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Date: 2020-03-24 12:51 am (UTC)[And weren't you the one who said to trust them, Akira?]