Yeah, well, I guess there's no second chances for bad guys. Just like usual.
[He's trying to keep an even voice, but his eyes might just betray how much it hurts to say those words. Because he suspects that even if the antidote had been available, they wouldn't have given it to Dazai. And that it's the same for himself too.]
[Hilariously, Chuuya thinks his actions are pretty damn selfish. He doesn't care that they are, but he at least recognizes the fact. So when he scoffs at Akira's description of him, it's because they're looking at the same events and drawing wildly different conclusions.]
Are you even listening to yourself? You're excusing murder and mafia activities. Would you be saying the same thing if we weren't such good friends?
[Akira does have a point about motivations and how that changes things, but Chuuya is pig-headed and hates conceding arguments.]
I'm not excusing murder. You've done some pretty shitty things, Chuuya. And you'll have to live with that for the rest of your life.
[but. . .?]
But the reasons why you did what you did are important to take into account, too. I'd be saying that even if we weren't good friends, but the fact that we are good friends-- the fact that you told me, straight up, that you want to be a better person-- is why I don't think you're a bad guy.
[because striving for self-improvement. . . that's important, too]
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:06 am (UTC)I know.
We let him down. And in the same breath, we let you down.
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:33 am (UTC)...and you didn't let me down either. You didn't have a cure, right? So it's not your fault.
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:53 am (UTC)[like 45 had the week before. but no one came in clutch, and that was disappointing]
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Date: 2020-03-23 04:04 am (UTC)[He's trying to keep an even voice, but his eyes might just betray how much it hurts to say those words. Because he suspects that even if the antidote had been available, they wouldn't have given it to Dazai. And that it's the same for himself too.]
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Date: 2020-03-24 12:43 am (UTC)You aren't a bad guy.
[. . . DAZAI WAS STILL A DICK, THO]
And even if Dazai is, he deserves a second chance as much as anyone else here does.
And if anyone tried to argue otherwise, I'd fight them on that point.
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Date: 2020-03-24 12:57 am (UTC)[It's kind of a lie, he doesn't like being looked down upon. But that's his ego talking.]
I'm not ashamed of it, and denying it ain't helping.
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Date: 2020-03-26 03:15 am (UTC)[not!! a bad guy!!!!!]
You've killed people, you've worked for the mafia, and you're focused on survival.
But you also did what you did it order to help someone you cared about, and while it was really damn stupid, it doesn't make you a bad person.
Because a bad person wouldn't be so selfless.
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Date: 2020-03-26 04:54 am (UTC)Are you even listening to yourself? You're excusing murder and mafia activities. Would you be saying the same thing if we weren't such good friends?
[Akira does have a point about motivations and how that changes things, but Chuuya is pig-headed and hates conceding arguments.]
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Date: 2020-03-27 11:03 pm (UTC)[but. . .?]
But the reasons why you did what you did are important to take into account, too. I'd be saying that even if we weren't good friends, but the fact that we are good friends-- the fact that you told me, straight up, that you want to be a better person-- is why I don't think you're a bad guy.
[because striving for self-improvement. . . that's important, too]