[ Can the god of chaos do anything more than the avatar of greed Ayabe had humored before? He's stunned silent for a moment, taking "like" at face value to mean Chuuya doesn't dislike him. Which is good? They're supposed to be friends, or something.
Friendship is a novel concept, but he's reminded of other people saying these exact things to him, and every time he struggles to accept care from others that he doles out to who he can reach. He promised them to be open, to let care be both ways, to stop running.
He keeps quiet for a moment, feeling his heart thump in his throat. ]
I like you too. That's why I- ...why I don't want you to do this, and why you don't want me to. I get it, Chuuya.
[That is a fair point that someone should bring up to Chuuya eventually, because he's not as indestructible as he likes to think he is.
Those words there, though. They stop Chuuya's ranting right in his tracks. The confession had been accidental because he had always assumed the feelings were one-sided and were pointless to think about, since they would never be returned. Why worry about something that would never happen? Or something like that. But that admission, even if unintended, plus the words that followed, they startled Chuuya a bit.]
Exactly: it's not fair to say "I'm going to do this" and then get angry when someone else says they're gonna do the same thing. It doesn't work that way. Either we both do it, or neither of us does.
[He might not offer any of those things, but Chuuya is going to make an offer: he holds up his own hand, so that Ayabe can take it and they can hold hands like that.]
[ asdflkjh he would have a better response for Chuuya if he asks again at a later time when Ayabe isn't so distressed about his sister, this is literally just a really bad time ]
"Whatever"... Don't worry about me. I'm not going to do anything stupid. We promised, didn't we?
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Date: 2020-03-18 02:06 am (UTC)Friendship is a novel concept, but he's reminded of other people saying these exact things to him, and every time he struggles to accept care from others that he doles out to who he can reach. He promised them to be open, to let care be both ways, to stop running.
He keeps quiet for a moment, feeling his heart thump in his throat. ]
I like you too. That's why I- ...why I don't want you to do this, and why you don't want me to. I get it, Chuuya.
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Date: 2020-03-18 02:38 am (UTC)Those words there, though. They stop Chuuya's ranting right in his tracks. The confession had been accidental because he had always assumed the feelings were one-sided and were pointless to think about, since they would never be returned. Why worry about something that would never happen? Or something like that. But that admission, even if unintended, plus the words that followed, they startled Chuuya a bit.]
Exactly: it's not fair to say "I'm going to do this" and then get angry when someone else says they're gonna do the same thing. It doesn't work that way. Either we both do it, or neither of us does.
But...really? You like me too? As in, Like like?
[Help him, he sounds like the teenager he is.]
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Date: 2020-03-18 02:55 am (UTC)Yeah. I like you.
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Date: 2020-03-18 03:14 am (UTC)[Neither of them are emotionally competent. This is the worst.]
Okay. I, er. Guess we'll have to keep each other from doing anything stupid?
[None of this solves the problem of what to do about Ayabe's sister though.]
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Date: 2020-03-18 03:27 am (UTC)Ayabe sighs and finally eases Chuuya's hand off his shirt, because both their arms are going to get tired hanging like this. ]
Yeah. We'll keep each other safe, so... I promise I won't kill anybody. Promise me you won't either.
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Date: 2020-03-18 03:46 am (UTC)Yeah, sure. If you won't kill, then I won't.
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Date: 2020-03-18 04:06 am (UTC)[ ...He doesn't offer a handshake or pinky promise or blood oath or anything. Apparently, all he needs is Chuuya's word. ]
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Date: 2020-03-18 04:41 am (UTC)It's a promise, then.
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Date: 2020-03-18 05:00 am (UTC)high fives Chuuya's hand? This is sort of like a promise thing?? It doesn't exactly translate to handholding for him ]
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Date: 2020-03-19 01:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-19 01:30 pm (UTC)Aaaah, whatever. Just remember to talk to someone if you're feeling like you're gonna do something stupid. Keeping secrets isn't good here.
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Date: 2020-03-19 03:38 pm (UTC)"Whatever"... Don't worry about me. I'm not going to do anything stupid. We promised, didn't we?
[ Killing = stupid
everything else is fair game ]
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Date: 2020-03-19 03:52 pm (UTC)I'm still gonna worry, but I'll try to trust you.
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Date: 2020-03-19 03:58 pm (UTC)Try is all I can ask for. [ since he spent all week being concerningly murderous, he knows that sort of trust is shaken. ]
Thanks, Chuuya.
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Date: 2020-03-19 04:53 pm (UTC)No problem, Ayabe.
[...he kind of wants to use 'Reito'...but that can happen another day.]