[ Instant ramen is fake food. Unless Chuuya adds vegetables and an egg in it or something, and then maybe it's barely passable.
It seems to him like Chuuya used to live in an orphanage- but one where there was no adult supervision? He doesn't quite get it, but as Chuuya talks, Ayabe looks a bit fond at the way he recounts those memories. ]
Sounds like you were something of a big brother to them? We could use more of that sort here, people who look out for one another.
[hhhhhhahahaha yeah, he sure did try to be a big brother to them.]
Y'know, I wasn't really good at it. They all sold me out in the end anyway. If I was a good big brother, they wouldn't have done that. So it's whatever.
[He's trying to act like he doesn't care, but that betrayal honestly sits heavy on his mind.]
It's Yokohama. Do you have any idea how many kids run the streets there? Hell, half the cops are crooked and don't care about kids anyway. That's why we looked out for each other.
[ Yokohama is HUGE so he can probably imagine- it's hard, though, being on the other side of things and turning a blind eye to corruption because it's not in broad daylight. ]
I hope you got out of that situation, or are on your way out. To a better one.
[ He heaves a sigh because yeah. Yeah!! Shit sucks. ]
Years before, too, with the raccoon and the shark. This whole thing is just some messed up experiment... But now that we know there's an antidote available [ please work ] then we can put an end to this. It's not so bleak anymore.
That's way more useful than what I got. 45 and I partnered up, and we got a rock.
[ He doesn't pull it out because he doesn't have it on him, but they can share this sort of thing later when they're with a larger group. ]
Akira's a good person to talk to as well— we got a group together on Friday to talk about things. Him, me, 45, Beau, and Hunter. Large groups are a bit of a hassle, but more heads are useful.
[ If he's a fool to, he doesn't think too much of it. The ultimate goal is still to make it out alive, and there's no reason for people to get in the way of that.
Unless they're psychos like Stefano. Ayabe had trusted Stefano too, which was terrible and he's realizing this now. ]
[ He scoffs a little, because he knows that not everybody is nice, that the world isn't sunshine and rainbows. It's not like he opens himself to people, makes himself vulnerable to anybody who so much as smiles his way, it's always been the opposite. ]
I know. But at least in a business sense, I trust people won't withhold things or lie, when there's information that could save everybody. ...Nie Huaisang proved me wrong already... Babo Kim too. Stefano. [ y'all... ]
But I know better now. It's not like my trust is universal.
[Stefano??? Wow Ayabe, don't trust the creepy adults!]
Yeah? Well I'm pretty sure everyone's withholding stuff right now. Even I am. Everyone's looking out for their own survival first and foremost, so they're keeping secrets close to their heart.
[ Stefano was weird and insulting and trusting him was a mistake YEAH ]
If it's secrets about themselves, I don't care about that. But things that would help us be able to stop these monsters and let us leave, why keep those a secret? Whether only they get out or everybody else does shouldn't be any different, right?
Where does the line between 'secrets about themselves' and 'secrets to help everyone' get drawn? If someone's a monster, they're going to hide it. The cure might work, but is there more? And what if it doesn't work?
They don't know, right? If they're a monster, wasn't it all subconscious...?
[ He spoke with Hunter the day before and the day after the kill and there was nothing, he noticed nothing. But maybe he's just really bad at noticing; he's never had to pay close attention to people before. ]
Even if they don't know for sure, they have to suspect it. Hunter went back and shot down the chandelier, didn't he? And like, the others, they had to have blood or something on them when they finished killing. And yet they didn't say a thing to anyone.
They don't remember. [ But it's hesitant, like he's speaking to convince himself just as much as he is Chuuya ] Everything that happened while the rest of us are asleep, they... say they don't remember. Like they were just sleepwalking, doing all those things.
[ It's what they say. He doesn't know. He's never transformed. ]
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Date: 2020-03-08 03:56 am (UTC)It seems to him like Chuuya used to live in an orphanage- but one where there was no adult supervision? He doesn't quite get it, but as Chuuya talks, Ayabe looks a bit fond at the way he recounts those memories. ]
Sounds like you were something of a big brother to them? We could use more of that sort here, people who look out for one another.
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Date: 2020-03-08 04:05 am (UTC)Y'know, I wasn't really good at it. They all sold me out in the end anyway. If I was a good big brother, they wouldn't have done that. So it's whatever.
[He's trying to act like he doesn't care, but that betrayal honestly sits heavy on his mind.]
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Date: 2020-03-08 04:14 am (UTC)[ He's assuming Chuuya lived with a bunch of 5 year old kids, what was his life?? ]
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Date: 2020-03-08 04:31 am (UTC)[It's actually way more complicated than that, but that's probably a more normal way of explaining things.]
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Date: 2020-03-08 04:35 am (UTC)What? Why? Wouldn't they have taken you to an orphanage? That should be better than living on the streets, wouldn't it?
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Date: 2020-03-08 04:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-08 05:14 am (UTC)[ Yokohama is HUGE so he can probably imagine- it's hard, though, being on the other side of things and turning a blind eye to corruption because it's not in broad daylight. ]
I hope you got out of that situation, or are on your way out. To a better one.
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Date: 2020-03-08 05:20 am (UTC)Well I guess it depends on if this mansion is 'better' or not.
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Date: 2020-03-08 05:23 am (UTC)[ No hesitation. This place is terrible and he wants out, he would rather be a street rat in Yokohama than a literal rat here. ]
They've been doing human experiments in this place. That's why there's a clinic room upstairs, and a morgue. Do you already know about that?
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Date: 2020-03-08 02:57 pm (UTC)[Ayabe is right. Chuuya would take the street life over this any day. ]
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Date: 2020-03-08 05:07 pm (UTC)Years before, too, with the raccoon and the shark. This whole thing is just some messed up experiment... But now that we know there's an antidote available [ please work ] then we can put an end to this. It's not so bleak anymore.
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Date: 2020-03-08 11:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-09 02:06 am (UTC)[ With their luck, it's probably just the one, though, because when has anything ever been easy for them? ]
We can talk about it later. With Ken and Dazai too. Are you guys getting along?
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:17 am (UTC)[He'll pull his own reward from then out. It's a little rabbit's foot charm.]
We get along, sure. Ken's nice, and Dazai is Dazai. The four of us could be a group, sure. Or we could make it five and drag Akira in too.
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:22 am (UTC)[ He doesn't pull it out because he doesn't have it on him, but they can share this sort of thing later when they're with a larger group. ]
Akira's a good person to talk to as well— we got a group together on Friday to talk about things. Him, me, 45, Beau, and Hunter. Large groups are a bit of a hassle, but more heads are useful.
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:42 am (UTC)[And. Yeah. Chuuya doesn't trust most people here.]
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:13 am (UTC)[ If he's a fool to, he doesn't think too much of it. The ultimate goal is still to make it out alive, and there's no reason for people to get in the way of that.
Unless they're psychos like Stefano. Ayabe had trusted Stefano too, which was terrible and he's realizing this now. ]
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:22 am (UTC)[Chuuya says this despite being glad that someone trusts him.]
Not everyone is nice, you know. Someone's gonna take that trust and stab you in the back with it.
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:28 am (UTC)I know. But at least in a business sense, I trust people won't withhold things or lie, when there's information that could save everybody. ...Nie Huaisang proved me wrong already... Babo Kim too. Stefano. [ y'all... ]
But I know better now. It's not like my trust is universal.
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:32 am (UTC)Yeah? Well I'm pretty sure everyone's withholding stuff right now. Even I am. Everyone's looking out for their own survival first and foremost, so they're keeping secrets close to their heart.
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:34 am (UTC)If it's secrets about themselves, I don't care about that. But things that would help us be able to stop these monsters and let us leave, why keep those a secret? Whether only they get out or everybody else does shouldn't be any different, right?
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-09 03:51 am (UTC)[ He spoke with Hunter the day before and the day after the kill and there was nothing, he noticed nothing. But maybe he's just really bad at noticing; he's never had to pay close attention to people before. ]
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-03-09 03:59 am (UTC)[ It's what they say. He doesn't know. He's never transformed. ]
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