[ This place sure is shit for that, and Ayabe's going to be real glad by the end of the week that he has such a normal life compared to literally everybody else here. ]
Yeah, he is. But I'm not going to ask him to look at the files for me. I'll just become an executive and read them for myself.
...by the way, you can't say anything about the 'Arahabaki' stuff to anyone. The moment anyone finds out I'm connected to the god of chaos, they're gonna assume I'm a monster too. So don't talk about it.
[ What happened to friendship and working together!! It looks like Chuuya and Dazai are getting along better than they were when they first arrived, but Ayabe also gets doing things for himself too. He's capable, so there's no reason to drag somebody else into private matters like this. ]
I won't say anything, but who would I even tell? Who would believe me?
[ Nobody besides Chuuya and Dazai would probably even know what he's talking about. ]
I doubt understand what's so bad about it, anyways. Nobody else here would either.
You know someone would latch onto it and use it to say I'm a killer. Even if they're being sympathetic to the monsters, that wouldn't make me any less dead.
And, duh, 'God of Chaos'? Everyone who finds out about that either is afraid of me or wants to experiment on me. Dazai's the only exception, and that's because he likes teasing me more than anything else.
He's a snake. He uses people to get what he wants and then discards them when he's done.
I put up with him here because I know our goals align: we both have to get back to the mafia safely, or else the boss will have our asses. What little 'trust' he gets from me is because I know he needs me alive right now. If the situation were different, I wouldn't trust him at all.
[Hopefully Ayabe can keep up with that explanation.]
[ He tries to think of what he knows of Dazai, and he can see it either way- doing what he wants and acting for his own purpose. If his goal is to keep Chuuya safe and get him out alive, then that's just as well. ]
What would he do to meet that goal? Would he throw the rest of us under the bus just to save himself and you?
[Now that was where Chuuya hesitated. As much as he would have liked to throw Dazai under the bus, he didn't want to draw unneeded attention to him either. Especially not from Ayabe. Knowing the teen, he would probably try to get involved, and Chuuya didn't want Dazai to decide that offing Ayabe was for the best.]
In other situations, maybe. But I don't think he would here. The risk of failing is too great for the reward of escaping.
[It absolutely could happen. Chuuya is gonna be pretty broken up if Ayabe dies though.]
I'll keep him on a leash.
...thanks, though. For your trust. And for not freaking out about the Arahabaki thing. I think you're the first person to learn about it who hasn't either tried to kill me or treated me like a science experiment.
[Even with Dazai's shitty past, he's still a manipulative dick.]
Be careful of him, okay? You're too nice. And while Dazai probably won't get you killed or anything, eventually he's going to take advantage of that niceness.
[And, for reasons he doesn't fully understand yet, he REALLY doesn't want that to happen. He'd rather see Ayabe...well okay, the guy doesn't smile, but he looks peaceful sometimes. That's a better look for him.]
[ I can't believe we all just gave up on Ayabe smiling and had to settle for peaceful, but that's fair. ]
I'll be careful. But if it's things like cooking and cleaning, that's not something he's taking advantage of. It's what I want to do.
[ In that sort of innocent, narrow-minded way, that's the only "taking advantage" he can think of, the way his little siblings worked him to the bone but it was more like him making that conscious choice to work himself to be bone for their sake. ]
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Date: 2020-03-10 03:10 am (UTC)[He sounds annoyed, but he also feels a bit vulnerable.]
No, I didn't. Not yet. What you saw, that happened like a day before I got dragged here. I haven't had time to become a mafia executive yet.
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Date: 2020-03-10 04:13 am (UTC)Isn't an executive pretty high up? Is Dazai one?
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Date: 2020-03-10 04:35 am (UTC)...by the way, you can't say anything about the 'Arahabaki' stuff to anyone. The moment anyone finds out I'm connected to the god of chaos, they're gonna assume I'm a monster too. So don't talk about it.
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Date: 2020-03-10 05:33 am (UTC)I won't say anything, but who would I even tell? Who would believe me?
[ Nobody besides Chuuya and Dazai would probably even know what he's talking about. ]
I doubt understand what's so bad about it, anyways. Nobody else here would either.
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Date: 2020-03-10 10:58 pm (UTC)And, duh, 'God of Chaos'? Everyone who finds out about that either is afraid of me or wants to experiment on me. Dazai's the only exception, and that's because he likes teasing me more than anything else.
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Date: 2020-03-11 04:16 am (UTC)I don't believe in gods, so the impact is probably lost on me. But Dazai- he brought you into the mafia, but you two aren't friends? Or are you?
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Date: 2020-03-11 04:34 am (UTC)But somehow, Chuuya is glad Ayabe is an idiot.]
Him and I? Friends? After what he did to me?
[His laugh is more like a short bark.]
No. I tolerate him because we're co-workers and I have to. But in reality, I hate him.
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Date: 2020-03-11 04:40 am (UTC)[ They have sleepovers together, what is Ayabe supposed to think? ]
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Date: 2020-03-11 05:07 am (UTC)I put up with him here because I know our goals align: we both have to get back to the mafia safely, or else the boss will have our asses. What little 'trust' he gets from me is because I know he needs me alive right now. If the situation were different, I wouldn't trust him at all.
[Hopefully Ayabe can keep up with that explanation.]
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Date: 2020-03-11 06:54 pm (UTC)What would he do to meet that goal? Would he throw the rest of us under the bus just to save himself and you?
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Date: 2020-03-11 11:01 pm (UTC)In other situations, maybe. But I don't think he would here. The risk of failing is too great for the reward of escaping.
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Date: 2020-03-12 01:59 am (UTC)...Alright. I'll trust your judgement of him.
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Date: 2020-03-12 03:18 am (UTC)I'll keep him on a leash.
...thanks, though. For your trust. And for not freaking out about the Arahabaki thing. I think you're the first person to learn about it who hasn't either tried to kill me or treated me like a science experiment.
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Date: 2020-03-13 12:02 am (UTC)I have no reason to distrust you. You were always right: from the start, you wrote that Dazai is a dick, and he is.
[ Ayabe was proven wrong day 1 ]
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Date: 2020-03-13 03:29 am (UTC)[Even with Dazai's shitty past, he's still a manipulative dick.]
Be careful of him, okay? You're too nice. And while Dazai probably won't get you killed or anything, eventually he's going to take advantage of that niceness.
[And, for reasons he doesn't fully understand yet, he REALLY doesn't want that to happen. He'd rather see Ayabe...well okay, the guy doesn't smile, but he looks peaceful sometimes. That's a better look for him.]
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Date: 2020-03-13 03:50 am (UTC)I'll be careful. But if it's things like cooking and cleaning, that's not something he's taking advantage of. It's what I want to do.
[ In that sort of innocent, narrow-minded way, that's the only "taking advantage" he can think of, the way his little siblings worked him to the bone but it was more like him making that conscious choice to work himself to be bone for their sake. ]
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Date: 2020-03-13 04:07 am (UTC)And Ayabe you sweet summer child.]
Aaah, I can't crush such innocent expectations like that.
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Date: 2020-03-13 04:13 am (UTC)Tell me what you mean.
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Date: 2020-03-13 05:09 am (UTC)