PCs for room 11!

[shortforever]

Because there's going to be a lot of these lol

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[His first thought is that, wow, Akira is walking pretty well now. And in that moment he actually feels a tinge of happiness that Akira is getting his mobility back, even a little bit.

But then he's being hugged and this totally isn't what he had been expecting at all.]

Akira?

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[he is clinging SO TIGHTLY, muttering angrily into Chuuya's shoulder as he refuses to let go]

You stupid idiot. You moron. You fucking-- I'm so fucking pissed off at you. . .!

[but also. . . tight hug??!?!?! mixed signals??!]

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[Wow these are such mixed signals! Chuuya doesn't know what to think about this!]

Uh, yea, I kinda figured. I have ears. I heard everything you said at the trial.

[survivaltricks]

I know.

[SO WHY IS HE REITERATING]

[and still. clinging??]

. . . if we hadn't found Lio, they all would've voted for you.

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Yeah, I know. I knew the risks when I did it.

[He just. Seems to accept this so casually?]

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[draws back, hands on Chuuya's shoulders, gripping them as tightly as he can]

You didn't think about how anyone here who cares about you would've felt if you had been executed?

[he no longer looks angry. he looks like a mixture of relieved and. . . sad-upset??]

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It's not as many people as you think it is.

[He has a very pessimistic view of his popularity, ok?]

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It's not the quantity of people that matters, Chuuya.

It's the quality of your relationships.

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Bullshit.

[Okay, now he's trying to pull away. Gently, so he doesn't knock Akira over, but he wants out of the hug.]

We're in a game of death by majority vote. If most people want me dead, they'll off me. The only thing that spared me today was the fear of the monsters.

[survivaltricks]

[nnnnot letting go, though like. he is swaying; it's probably not too difficult to break away if Chuuya tries hard enough]

I'm not talking about votes! I'm talking about the people who care about you-- who you care about in return-- and how they'd feel watching you die!

[god damn it]

I'm talking about me!

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[Oh.

Chuuya had been about to pull away, but hearing that makes the fight drain right out of him.]

I guess I didn't think about that. I mean, usually situations like this end with a knife in my gut.

[Luckily Akira saw that particular memory, so he doesn't have to explain it.]

[survivaltricks]

. . . well, I'm not going to stick a knife in your gut.

[OBVIOUSLY??]

And I don't want you to take your stuff and move out. I'm pissed off, but you're still my friend.

[and he means that!!]

And more than anything. . . I was afraid of what might've happened to you today.

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Would you still say that even if you knew I fought your cop-friend?

[BECAUSE YEAH. THAT SURE DID HAPPEN.]

[survivaltricks]

[buddy]

I've kicked his ass like, three times now. If you weren't fighting him then I'd think something was wrong with you.

[so yeah, he would say that]

[shortforever]

Okay good. Because I couldn't stand his self-righteous attitude at the trial and I had to let him know he wasn't allowed to be snooty like that.

[Chuuya is still Chuuya, after all.]

[survivaltricks]

[HONESTLY]

[THUMBS UP]

He's obnoxious sometimes, so good on you.

[shortforever]

Hearing you say all that stuff at the trial made me mad too.

[Like, he knows why Akira did it, but that doesn't make him any less mad.]

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[. . . a small sigh]

Can you blame me for being angry? Hunter showed that note about the DVDs being fake to everyone, and--

[well. . . it's not that he doesn't understand why Chuuya chose to murder after all, but. he's was just!! mad! still is mad, although that's cooling significantly now that they're talking]

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...I didn't trust him.

[Oops it's confession time.]

I know it's not his fault, but- why did he get saved and Dazai didn't? Every time I see him, I can't stop thinking that. And every time I think about it, it drives me up a wall.

I hate him for it. It's not even his fault, and I still hate him.

So I didn't listen to him. I just plowed on ahead doing my own thing like he hadn't spoken up at all. And it wasn't until Friday when I got that note from Dazai confirming that we shouldn't be killing, and by then it was too late.

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[well. . . well. that. . .]

[. . .]

[Akira's expression immediately softens into understanding, all of his anger having been washed away by that admission. he knew that Chuuya was upset that they couldn't save Dazai, but. . .]

[. . .]

Chuuya. . .

[reaching to touch his arm]

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[He flinches a little at the touch, because he's totally expecting a reprimand. He's not sure if pity is better or worse though.]

Don't- I'm not gonna do anything to him. I'll leave him alone.

[survivaltricks]

I know.

. . . I'm not worried.

[another quiet pause]

There has to be a way we can still save Dazai. Him, and everyone else on the other side.

[shortforever]

[Chuuya makes an irritated noise.]

I know there is, that's not the problem here.

[survivaltricks]

[. . . yeah, he supposes that's true. at this point, it's all just a useless platitude, isn't it?]

I know.

We let him down. And in the same breath, we let you down.

[shortforever]

Dazai is fine. He's a little dead right now, but he's not gone. We'll find a way to get him back.

...and you didn't let me down either. You didn't have a cure, right? So it's not your fault.